Okay
i'm going to vent if only for a moment because it seems that if I vent anywhere else I will get yelled at and what not. Annnnyway. This is due to the recent annoyance of my friend Kaitlin
I love her to death and all and I would do anything for her but she has decided to date my ex boyfriend Ryan. I mean sure I want her to be happy but I really wish she had a little bit more respect than to date him.
its 1. awkward to me and prolly him when we're in the same room (me and him had a 'ast' together)
2. I do have a problem with him, he is very high on my pissed off list of people. So when I think of him I get very angry.
3. She knows how I feel about all of this she knows how I feel about him too! I was hopeing she would have a little more respect for me not to date him
I mean yeah yeah, I've known that she's wanted a boyfriend for a while now, and hes wanted a girlfriend. But to automatically date the first avaliable person that pops into your life seems a little well... Desparate.
I doubt this relationship will last very long but due to it I have gotten into a fight with many of my friends. Only because they have all joined her side knowing her side of the story. I don't believe she is right and I refuse to admit that i'm wrong when I know i'm not. I have a few people on my side but no one will really truly know the whole story other than me and Ryan.

Then theres the whole summer school thing, which is bleh for the first time in my life I will be going to summer school which is gayyyy. *sigh* I was really depressed a while ago why? because my dear friend Paeth is leaving for the military in November a little after my birthday. Which i'm glad he'll be here for, I just want him to come home safely ya know?

I had a friend who was here not too long ago but he scared the crap out of me. He knew I had a boyfriend and everything but he insisted on taking me away from him. Well this friend came to my house in the middle of the night around 3am and knocked on my window (quick side note: I've slept in the living room for over 9 months now so my head is right next to the window) I opened up the door knowing it was him and he let himself inside. He rode his bike (That doesn't have a seat) over 5 hours to get here. The entire time I was uncomfortable around him, something just didn't settle right. So eventually I texted my friend Paeth, who normally doesn't get texts from me at 3 in the morning. He knew I was serious then. The person kept pulling me on his lap and what not thinking i'm just joking around when I said get away from me. Finally I asked Paeth to come over because I just didn't feel comfortable with the guy around. Paeth came over and I told the guy (we'll call J) how I felt. I've been terrified of J for awhile now ever since I saw him during spring break. I've been having nightmares about him and thought that when I told him I didn't want to be with him that he would hurt me. I wouldn't put it past him because he was always unpredictable.
Paeth stayed with me until 6am because J came back two other times before leaving for good. Paeth had an unsettling feeling about J too. Paeth is never ever uncomfortable about a situation hes never nervous or scared but about J around me he was.

So i've been under abunch of stress for awhile now and thats not even half of what is going on. I think i've done enough ranting for now. So yeah.